Waiting for Savasana



It’s 1 in the afternoon and we are still in our jammies.  I’ve been playing Candy Crush Saga all day.   Well until I ran out of lives and then I played this stupid Bubble Witch game I don’t understand. It’s a distraction.  The boys are watching a movie.  I did manage to load the dishwasher.  I am feeling quite inert.  Is that ok?

Probably not.

I’m not depressed.  I’m just here. And not feeling like doing much of anything.

I’m not sure how other people do this.

And of course I now wonder if I’m doing this right.

Am I doing this right?

This really sucks.

Eventually, I will have to get dressed and take the boys to tennis lessons. It’s a start I guess.


3 thoughts on “Processing

  1. Be gentle with yourself or be hard on yourself. Rest or be a busy bee. Laugh or cry. Feel all the emotions or stick your head in the sand. There is no right way, there is no wrong way, there is just your way. The waiting while all the decisions are in someone’s else hands is difficult… no getting around that, just getting through it is challenge enough.

  2. I can’t say I’m “enjoying” reading your story because it sucks that you’re going through this. But I really admire your honesty and courage in sharing what you are experiencing. I am pulling for you and your 3 immediate goals. Have you heard about this documentary about BRCA? I heard the filmmaker interviews on NPR Talk of the Nation and it sounds so good. http://www.pbs.org/pov/inthefamily/#.UWZ8G2S9Kc2

  3. Hi Beth….I will keep you and your family in my prayers…

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