Waiting for Savasana


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I Cried at Chemo Today

Yes, I really did.

I also watched the new Star Trek movie until I fell asleep from the Benadryl they put in my I.V.

I feel great today.

But I talked to my nurse about pain management and it made me cry.

I think we have a plan but we’ve had lots of plans in the past that sometimes work and sometimes don’t.

I made another friend though.  She was in the chair next to me and she finished before me.  She told me that she was sorry I was having a rough time and that she was having a rough time too.  She still has a way to go.  I’m almost done. I told her we will both get through it and someday it will feel like a really bad dream.I like making friends but I am sad that any of us have to be in this club.  Nobody wants to be in the cancer club.  Nobody.

It makes me scared.  Scared for everyone I love.  I hope you all try to take care of yourselves.  Limit your red meat consumption. Eat more veggies than meat.  Limit sugar.  Ugh!  And think about cutting out dairy.  That’s a difficult one.

And exercise every day.  One study says that breast cancer survivors who walk 30 minutes every day cut their risk of recurrence dramatically.

Try to avoid cosmetics with parabens.  OMG, it’s so hard to find good stuff without all the bad stuff.  Like moisturizer.  Believe me, we chemo people need our lotions.  Chemo dries out your skin.  I’ve got Egyptian Magic and some other cream but I don’t like the way they smell.  Ugh!  And then I worry that people can smell me.  Eww!  And did you know that Burts Bee’s was bought several years ago by…wait for it…Clorox! And now they are not even considered “safe”.  That grinds my gears!  I love make up and now that I look so ill, I need makeup.  I don’t want to poison myself anymore but man, clean make up is hard to find.

And in other news, while I officially have about ten eyebrow hairs left on each eyebrow (yes, I’m counting them), I am growing a bunch of white baby peach fuzz on my head!  I am a fuzzy duckling!  Jury is still out on whether it will still or fall out like it did before.  My eyelashes are hanging on by a tiny bit but they are going fast.  Oh well.  Patient patient, right.  I can not control any of it.

What else?

My youngest planted a garden this summer with his Grandma. My little one has a bumper crop of cherry tomatoes.  Sooooo many tomatoes.  It’s wonderful.  My husband made a delicious soup in his beloved Vitamix.  It came out of the blender HOT! And it was very yummy.  Eat your veggies, people!  EAT THEM!!!

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After chemo we went to our neighborhood grocery store and saw my friend who works there.  Our eldest sons met the day before kindergarten and have been friends ever since.  She asked how I was doing and I was honest that it’s been rough and I was just coming from my 7th of 8 chemos.  Later she came running out to my car and gave me these:

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Aren’t they beautiful?!!  I have really nice friends.

Wish me luck on round 3 of Taxol.  I plan to sleep a lot.

Just one more to go!  Yippie!

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Paleo Sweet Potato Soup or Fun With Gadgets

A week or two ago, I tried this awesome recipe for sweet potato soup from Melissa Joulwan.

I tried it because it has bacon in it.  Bacon!!  We love the bacon.  I love bacon so much that I never order it at a restaurant.  Know why?  Because they never give you enough!  I can never have enough bacon.  My eldest feels the same.  We love the bacony goodness of bacon.

I was a bit intimidated by the recipe, mainly because I didn’t have quite everything I needed and I was in my pajamas and did not feel like getting dressed and going to the store (I told you I was lazy).  I didn’t have chives but I had some scallions for the garnish.  Good enough for me!  I thought I didn’t have chicken broth but I dug around in my fridge and found some broth I made just a couple days prior in my crock pot.  That was some hard core broth.

And Oooh! the whole recipe starts with frying up some bacon!

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Mmm…yummy.  I had to stop myself from eating it.  After I cooked the bacon, I removed it from the pan to use as a garnish.  Which is something I appreciate because I have found that bacon loses it’s UMPH when it gets left into most dishes to simmer and bake.

When I saw I needed to finely slice the sweet potatoes, I panicked.  But only for a moment because I remembered that we have a handy dandy food processor.  I always forget about that thing and to tell the truth, it scares me a bit.  My parents had a food processor they never used because my mom said “It made too much of a mess”.  But then again, mom’s always been a bit of a food Luddite.  She won’t even use her dishwasher because “It just doesn’t get the dishes clean enough!”

My husband says I need to forget my childhood if I am going to be happy.

So I pulled out the food processor and found the right blade. And got to chopping.  It was so easy!  And look at those gorgeous taters!

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Melissa’s recipe calls for Ras el Hanout which I had never heard of before but apparently is a melange of spices including cinnamon, alspice and other yumminess.  Lucky for me, I had already made a batch when I cooked a ground lamb dish.  I saved the blend in an airtight container and stored it in my fridge.  Why in my fridge?  I don’t know, it just seemed like a good idea.

 

I sauteed the other veg and spice and added all of my stuff and simmered.  It looked like this:

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And then it was time to puree.  I was so excited.  I got to pull out our brand new big gun blender.  My husband is a Christmas baby and I was planning on giving him the new blender for his birthday…and then our old blender died in November so his birthday came a little early.  Anyway, I had not used it before.  He insisted on giving me a lesson.  There seem to be a few steps.  You flick this switch and then turn this dial SLOWLY and then the magic happens!

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Once I was done pureeing, I poured it into cute bowls and garnished with BACON!! and chopped scallions.

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And it was awesome!

I have to say that fancy pants blender really pureed the heck out of that soup.  Not a lump in sight and it was smooth and creamy.  Almost like you would imagine hot ice cream to be.

Everyone loved it. Everyone raved!  My boys asked for seconds.  The dog tried to eat some.

It was glorious.

I couldn’t have done it without the gadgets.  They truly make life easier.  And as far as the clean up, The Husband handled that.

I was in soup savasana.