Yesterday, out of the blue, I felt human. For the first time in weeks. I had a little energy. I laughed louder. I was social. I went for a walk with my husband and even said hi to a neighbor. It all started before the sun even came up. I woke up at 6am feeling pretty good and got started on putting together and finishing a baby quilt for my sister’s soon to be new arrival. My youngest and I did the preliminary work (he asked for a sewing machine for his 8th birthday and he got one). I sat on the floor in the early morning light and started pinning squares together. A few hours later, I had this:
When my little one came home from camp, The Eldest and I exclaimed his name together. “HEEEEYYY!!!” He came in for a hug, grinning from ear to ear. I haven’t seen that smile in awhile.
This morning I got up and made french toast for everyone. “Mama’s back.” The Husband quipped.
For now. In this moment. I am.
Today I called a friend, folded clothes. I’m going to make a bag for my niece.
I hopefully have four more days of this feeling pretty good. I hope to make the most of it.
It’s nice to be back.